Halo Schatz!
Tari here… I have a lottttt to tell you… I'll start with my most recent heartbreak experience… Yet another failed attempt at falling in love.🤦😒
Here goes…
Kosi spoke on and on about many things. He was always so talkative… or so I thought until Bimbo, my roommate, pointed out that he was only like that with me. He seemed to always want my attention fixed on him—she claimed. He did a lot of funny things and oftentimes daring things whenever I was with him, it was so difficult to not look at him with stars in my eyes.
So, one Tuesday when he asked me to come with him to his house, I didn't hesitate. He had a roommate anyway, and Bimbo was coming with me. Trying to quell my suspicions, I reminded myself that he only wanted me to know his house just in case I had an emergency and nowhere to go.
I argued that I never had emergencies, He explained that anything could happen — Bimbo could lock me out, and because of the epileptic power supply, my phone would be off and I wouldn't be able to reach her. I rolled my eyes at him but it was only in an attempt to hide the blush that was creeping in. How could anyone be so thoughtful!
Feigning reluctance, (I could barely resist with the terrible emergency he just cooked up), I walked with him to his house, with an overly enthused Bimbo egging me on. The hostel he stayed in was huge! “70 rooms!” Bimbo gave me a look then looked pointedly at an open room door. I got the message. I was surprised really, from the entrance you'd never suspect you were walking into such a massive structure. Kosi caught my bewilderment and went on to charm me with stories about the hostel, his neighbours and how much of a delight it was living there. His stories made my 16-room bungalow of a hostel look like a measly bird's nest.
As we finally approached his room door, I heard voices coming out of his room. He quickly apologized. He didn't know that some of his friends were around. He proceeded to bang his feet very loudly in a manner that only showed he was trying to draw attention. I whispered to Bimbo how ridiculous he was being and I couldn't believe she said he was being cute. Someone called out, “You just want us to know you're here!” We all laughed. Then he stepped into the room.
Since Bimbo and I simply came to see the room and we had, we stayed outside waiting to see what Kosi wanted next. Would he invite us in? I hoped not. At least not with those friends inside the room. We stood whispering—wondering what would happen next, when I heard Kosi say, “Come let me introduce you.” My stomach did a backflip. I swallowed. Why was I suddenly nervous? Bimbos giggling didn't help.
I pushed her in front of me claiming that she should go first since she's older but I really needed a moment to calm myself. Someone called out, “Our neighbour, come in.” Our neighbour? Why would he think it was his neighbour? I brushed the thought aside.
Just then, I realised that I had seen a neighbour outside, she was spreading white shirts. I don't know how many but she seemed to be taking her precious time. I may have been overthinking but at the mention of “neighbour”, I saw her try and fail to hide a smirk.
Before I could analyze any more, Kosi opened the curtain and gestured to us, I snuck a look at the neighbour again, she had disappeared. We walked into the room. Immediately he introduced us to Shina, he exclaimed, “I know this face!” I recognised that it was the same person that has been speaking since we came. I guessed that Shina might be talkative.
At my questioning look, Kosi confessed that he had actually shown them my picture long before. He had an almost shy smile. We sped through the introductions and I was ready to flee the awkward scene. However, I did notice that his friends were very welcoming and funny. I met Shina, Tosin and Kosi's roommate, Oti. From Bimbo's radiant smile, I could tell it went better than she expected too.
Bimbo and I stepped out but had to wait when Kosi didn't follow immediately. I heard Shina make a few comments and the guys kept roaring in laughter. “They must be fun to be around,” I thought. They were so lively!
Kosi brought the water I had asked for. I was grateful—the excitement of the visit made me even thirstier. I liked that it was cool to touch and I stated that the water was cold, only to hear Shina say, “Oh, Kosi, it seems you gave her water from the Fridge.” Everyone laughed, including Kosi. What was so funny? I know they don't have a fridge. Were they laughing at themselves? Boys! I shook my head.
Movement caught my eyes and I looked up to see the neighbour who had been spreading her clothes, she was walking back to her room. How long did it take to spread clothes? I paused mid eye roll when I noticed she could barely stand straight, trying so hard to contain her laughter. Hey! How come she got the joke and I didn't? I didn't think too much about it though, she probably had a lot of male friends.
I looked up as Kosi stepped out of the room. He had a big smile on his face. I took that to mean his friends liked me. I smiled back at him. It had been a successful visit. I had come only to see his house but I had met his friends and they liked me, it seemed the universe had approved of my crush for once.
On our way home, Bimbo talked non-stop about the visit, analysing and recounting everything that happened like my mind wasn't already doing the same unprovoked!
The neighbour's smirk kept nagging at me. I got the feeling that it wasn't a coincidence. Each time I brushed it aside, especially since Bimbo didn't think it meant anything. I went to bed happy. I couldn't wait to see Kosi in class the next day.
At 2am, l woke up with a start! Shina is not Kosi's roommate. He is only a friend that came visiting. “Our neighbour” from Shina's POV could have only meant a specific person he had been told about. The girl spreading the clothes must have known that too. Shina could have said whatever he said to me, to the “neighbour” too if she was being introduced to him!
Those jokes that went over my head were really not jokes at all, they were mocking me—that's why the girl (neighbour spreading clothes) was laughing!
Palms over my face I groaned in frustration.
“When will I finally like someone that has sense?” I lay down in a fetal position & tried desperately to fall asleep again.
Come morning, Kosi and I would remain good friends.
Ttyl…
💙Tari.
P.S. What do you think about my failed love attempt?😩
Let me know in the comments🤗💙…
That took a dark turn waaay too fast tari